| Come here often? |
[Jun. 19th, 2007|03:02 pm] |
| [ | Current Location |
| | Work House #1 | ] |
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Not really.
So, I have come to an important conclusion from my job: I don't like kids. Probably wasn't a wise decision to get a full-time babysitting job for the summer. Kids for a short time and a certain age are okay. I'm actually pretty good at babysitting but this 8-5 thing sucks. I'm basically just being a big whiny baby because I often get off before 5. They just constantly fight and that makes me think of all of the fun things I could be doing instead. I could sleep in, get a tan that didn't look like leprosy, hang out with friends more. But there is also the downside that my mother would find all sorts of fun things for me to do.
Done now.
Maybe I'll see you again soon. |
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[Mar. 16th, 2007|07:26 pm] |
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So, I've decided college is dumb. Why do some of them have to be so expensive, especially my favorite? For the past week I've been doing some major stressing over the whole money for school situation. I've decided that I'm just going to fill out a lot of scholarships and be positive about it.
But no matter how stressful this is, I'm in a really good mood. A couple of days ago I found out that two of my amazing friends from Michigan are coming. I could not be more excited. They have the same spring break and decided to drive down. I haven't seen them in close to two years. I want to do a lot of fun things while they are here. And show them the highlights of Champaign County. Any suggestions? |
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[Mar. 6th, 2007|05:55 pm] |
IT'S MY BIRTHDAY!!!
So far it's been pretty good. |
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[Mar. 3rd, 2007|08:53 am] |
| [ | Current Location |
| | My house | ] |
| [ | mood |
| |  chipper | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Ellen and Thomas running around | ] |
I love Woodfield Mall! Erin and I went there yesterday. Lots of shopping. I bought my prom dress, its gorgeous. I also got a pair of shoes, perfume, a dress for the Hall of fame induction and lots of pretty clothes from Delia's. Thank god my parents gave me money for my birthday.
We also visited my grandma. She was hilarious. Guess what she gave up for lent? Sex and chocolate. She cracks me up. Such a funny old Catholic. |
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[Feb. 13th, 2007|09:10 pm] |
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| | chipper | ] |
What an amazing day!
I absolutely loved waking up to the area covered in white. I decided to be nice and help my parents shovel when I woke up. I got all bundled up and braved the cold. It wasn't that bad except for when the little ice-snow thingies hit my face. While outside I got something out of my frozen car. Then I went to slam the door and it decided to bounce back open. Trying again didn't help the situation, so I yelled for my dad to come fix it. My car began to fill with snow as my dad failed at fixing the door. My car got to spend the day in the garage--a rarity. Just a few minutes ago, with the help of my brother-in-law on the phone, I fixed the door. It closes now. I'm feeling pretty good about my handy woman moment. I should go fix other things. Or, build something, like a house!
I want to go play in the snow! |
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[Feb. 5th, 2007|06:28 pm] |
I HATE PEOPLE!
The general public is lacking intelligence. I'm done talking to everyone. From now on there will be a question and answer session to determine if a person is worthy of speaking to me. |
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[Feb. 2nd, 2007|08:39 pm] |
| [ | Current Location |
| | Jackson Hewitt | ] |
| [ | mood |
| | calm | ] |
| [ | music |
| | the buzz of computers | ] |
This is one of those days that I love my job. I worked at Jackson Hewitt tonight 4-9pm. I'm technically still working. It's been five hours of nothing. The first hour was kind of crazy with people and phone calls but not much after that. I sit in a room and answer phones. So, when no one is calling I get to wander around the internet and read. I even finished my book--Breakfast of Champions. And, we had Jimmy John's delivered. This job is fantastic. I'm even getting paid more than minimum wage.
All I can say is thanks dad. |
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[Jan. 21st, 2007|08:30 pm] |
| [ | Current Location |
| | home | ] |
| [ | mood |
| | cheerful | ] |
I love snow so much. The day was completely miserable looking but I loved it.
Doug and I had a snowball fight at work. I definitely won. I'm pretty kick-ass when it comes to snowball fights. Also, it might have helped that he was smoking a cigarette during the entire event. But, we'll just ignore that.
I went for a walk in the snow too. It was so pretty. The sun had set but it was still relatively bright. I walked to the sledding hill in the cemetery. There was a rope up like that was going to keep kids from sledding. Dumb idea. You can't keep kids from a good sledding hill. I was walking down the hill kind of slow trying not to slip. I'd almost reached the bottom and then I fell hard on my butt. Since I was already wet I decided to make a snow angel.
God, I love this weather. |
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[Jan. 14th, 2007|10:29 am] |
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| | relaxed | ] |
I finally finished my book yesterday! It's taken me since September but I'm done with Ancient Egyptian Civilizations. Predynastic Egypt proved to be more interesting than I thought. It was much better towards the end. Now, I have all sorts of random facts that very few people know. I'm pretty special. Now on to This Lullaby.
My nephew and I are listening to music while I'm typing. A song came on and I told him I was going to play air guitar. He started doing some dance. I asked him what it was. He said he was playing the drums. Why is this kid so adorable? |
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[Nov. 29th, 2006|08:27 pm] |
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| |  disappointed | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Pandora.com | ] |
Weak.
That's how I feel today. I usually consider myself a strong person but not today.
I still can't figure out why I didn't stand up to her. I'm definitely stronger than her. But I backed down.
Jeanine was right, I let her win.
That's not going to happen tomorrow though. I've even got a list of everything I'm going to say to them. I just need to get a little angry and psych myself up. |
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[Nov. 27th, 2006|06:08 pm] |
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| |  bitchy | ] |
| [ | music |
| | The Fray | ] |
Confrontation.
Why do people have such a hard time with this word and the act that goes along with it? By definition it is somewhat negative. But, to me, it can be incredibly helpful.
I'm having some problems with this within my family. There are two situations and people that I think should be confronted. The rest of the family is obviously upset in one of these situations but everyone just ignores it. The other one is more important to me and I want to say something. In all honesty it will probably be bad at first. Some sides taken and several arguments. But in the long run it could be so much better. That's how it is with both. I really want to handle the one that is of more importance to me but my mom and sister don't seem to think that it's a good idea. I already don't have a very good relationship with this person so I'm not that concerned about what happens.
If you are meant to interact with someone, than they should be able to handle a little confrontation. (I hope all were able to catch the extra meaning behind that last sentence.) |
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[Nov. 2nd, 2006|07:03 pm] |
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| | home | ] |
| [ | mood |
| | ecstatic | ] |
| [ | music |
| | my pandora station | ] |
I am beyond excited.
Tonight I went to the barn where I used to ride. Saw all the ponies, some new. And I talked with the owner/instructor. I'm gonna have a lesson!!!!!!!!!!!!!! She's supposed to call me so we can set up a definite time.
I haven't ridden in about 1 year and 3 months. When junior year chaos began, I let it slip away. I've missed so much. I don't think I could describe how badly I've been wanting to ride. I had been riding at least once a week for five years straight, and than suddenly stopped. But, I'm going back.
I can't remember the last time I was this happy. |
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[Oct. 17th, 2006|02:23 pm] |
I am in a funk. Yep, a funk.
I don't feel like doing anything productive or otherwise.
I don't know how I got in this funk.
And, I don't know how to get out. |
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[Oct. 10th, 2006|07:30 pm] |
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| | Today Sucked | ] |
| [ | music |
| | The Fray | ] |
As little kids, we believe our parents to be invincible. We think that they can do anything; stand up against anyone; protect you from all hurtful things. It's an amazing amount of trust. As you get older you begin to realize certain things. I think this realization has had the biggest impact on me today. I'm sitting there with my parents, discussing things and WHAM! It hits me. My views have changed greatly from theirs. I want to handle something completely different than they suggest handling it. Not just that, but they are nowhere near as strong as I thought they were. They some comment about biting your tongue and you cant change everything. What if I want to change everything? If I'm unhappy, why should I just sit there? Maybe life has brought them to this philosophy. Or, maybe they've always felt incapable of changing things. I don't know. It's possible that I'm really naive about making the world a better place. |
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[Sep. 28th, 2006|10:15 pm] |
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| | Grey's Anatomy soundtrack | ] |
To all of those people feeling upset/depressed/stressed:
Since I know where you're coming from, I also know this probably won't help. But you know what, I'm gonna say it anyway.
It will get better. Take it slow. Try not to freak out. If you have to drop something, do it. But don't let yourself become an unhappy mess. It doesn't really work for everyone. You'll make it through whatever shit you're going through. Just focus. Or, you know what else help, do absolutely nothing productive for a day. It should help clear your head.
I was feeling encouraging and optimistic this evening. |
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[Sep. 25th, 2006|05:28 am] |
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| |  sleepy | ] |
| [ | music |
| | stupid ticking clock | ] |
Is the school year over yet?
You can lie to me, it's okay. |
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[Sep. 21st, 2006|10:34 pm] |
When people say they don't have a favorite child, they are lying. I've been coming to this conclusion for some time.
I spent some time with my niece and nephew today. My nephew is incredibly cute and adorable without even trying. So when he smiles, you can't help but wish all kids were like him. My niece, I guess you could call cute. Well, you definitely could, because she kind of looks like me. But somehow she has gotten a severe attitude. I really just wanted to smack her tonight. But my mom would have been upset.
I love them both equally of course. But I would pick my nephew over my niece any day.
And, I'm definitely my parent's favorite. |
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[Sep. 17th, 2006|06:08 pm] |
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| | cranky | ] |
I HATE THIS ENGLISH PROJECT! I can't motivate myself to do anything related to it. |
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| I learned something today. |
[Sep. 5th, 2006|05:06 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | aggravated | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Franz Ferdinand (thanks Trent) | ] |
I am still considered the bad guy/mean person/bitch in this situation. Which is beyond irritating.
What do people have against honesty? Yep, more honesty ranting. Does everyone want to be lied to? I obviously need to start talking to more people if that's the case. Personally, I want to know what's going on. I know it's weird but I do make mistakes and I like it if people let me know when I've fucked up. I base friendships on honesty, Jeanine and Ashley can back me up on that. I just don't understand all the people in the world--or little ol' Champaign County--that can't be truthful with their friends. There really isn't a point to being someone's friend if you talk about a bunch of meaningless shit that doesn't require honesty.
Knowing you're considered mean or a bitch just makes you want to be more like that. At least that's what it's like for me.
I know who will inevitably read this. So, there you go. Don't expect any more apologies. I've already said sorry for anything hurtful. But, I wasn't really that rude...I was honest. |
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